I always thought I had a decent enough looking vajayjay. I was never embarrassed by it. I was never worried about what people thought. But that all ended in 2008, when I pushed a baby out of that decent enough looking vajayjay. After that, things changed on how I viewed myself down there. It was not the vagina I remembered and it definitely was no longer decent looking. In fact, it was hideous. Ugly. Repulsive. Grotesque. Revolting………well you get the picture. Well hopefully you don’t because it really was ghastly to say the least. I was extremely embarrassed by the way it looked. I no longer wanted my husband to see me down there. He kept telling me I was still beautiful down there to him (liar or blinded by love? Still trying to figure that one out).
I finally started laser hair removal down there after putting it off for so long and every time I went in I would glance at the face of the lady doing my laser treatment to see if I could catch her grimacing when she got a look at my vajayjay. Her face never showed anything and that always surprised me. I guess I was expecting nothing short of her running out of the room screaming in horror at the look of my vagina.
Soon after that I got to talking to some of my co-workers. I work in a unit full of women so we have interesting conversations at times. One conversation that came up was the look of vaginas after pushing out a baby. After hearing many stories about it I realized that I was not the only one who felt the way I did. In fact, the concerns they were voicing mimicked my own. After coming to the realization that I am not the only woman in the world to feel this way, I started to feel better. I should also add that I now work in a field where I see vajayjays all night. This has also shed some light on my own vajayjay plight. There are so many different looking vaginas out there, each one unique. I see all the amazing things a woman’s body can do. What it goes through during pregnancy, during delivery, after birth. I can now honestly say that I love myself down there, no matter how different I may look. We are all truly amazing in our own way.